As I write this, sharing a love letter of Flowerbook, my recently announced Poetry book. I had written a post which some how erased while saving it. Feeling as though time and space is playing tricks on me, I decided to step away, letting it all go, (exhale). Astrologically there is force of energy hinting at me, reminding me that I am not alone in the publishing realms.
Now weeks later resuming from my original post, I continue to share with fresh eyes and heart.
A massive fire awakened and devastated Northern California this past week, it has shaken me to the core, questioning life, feeling helpless for friends who have lost everything. The tragedies happening to the world at large is too much for our souls to take. It has been all to frequent, week after week, hearing of a mass shootings in Vegas, Hurricanes in east, Earthquakes in south, and musical legends passing on hits home. Is this normal?
In these grief stricken times, I question whether or not I should be publishing my book. It’s taken some time to get here, and also feels too surreal on what is happening to our planet since this new president has taken office? We could argue he is to blame…? I mean, it is a rational thought? Maybe a coincidence his insensitivities have angered Mother Nature?
Despite all that is going on every ounce of me says not give up... that said, it's not easy. I ration that this is a time when we need to keep going and work on our passions and ourselves… As without art, who are we? We also now need to start helping the people that need us. The earth is changing, humanity is changing, and there is too much happening to offset the balance of our existence. We need more art, beauty, and poetic voices to stand up.
My journey into writing has been a beautiful exploration of self. While there have been many ups and downs in the last six years. Leaving a long career in production; commercials and film music to try my hand at writing a novel. I discovered my passion for philosophy, poetry, photography and storytelling.
Creating Flowerbook was a bit of a hiatus from the novel writings. I am resuming that now, but for the last year and a half I found a deep love for poetry.
While deep into it's manifestation, I began to understand the publishing world slowly but surely. Flowerbook became a little art piece... Asking women to contribute also felt a little like the old me in the production realm, connecting artist, seeing the story line. Diving deep into the bigger picture has never felt so good. the visual storyteller in me is beginning to blossom and the path of least resistance is unfolding before me.
I attained beautiful photos that inspired poems. I felt almost ready to publish when a trip to Malaysia and meeting a Feng Shui master who told me not publish until the fall of 2017 became a reality. I listened. While I am still unclear if that was good or bad advice, it did however deepen my experience to start photographing and adding some original content. I also had photographers, Katherina and Melissa shoot specifically for Flowerbook.. reminiscing on my set days in the 90's.
I am so grateful to these women and I wanted to share how much I appreciated their time as the biggest contribution of my book.
I also want give some big love to my dear friends who took the time to model, muse and be luminous for this book and me.
I have some amazing friends who have pushed me to continue on even when I have felt so down on making this book happen. Which is really... is also a more recent feeling... I know it is part of journey to have your ego in a twisted knot? even the thought of failure has also been at the edge of existence. I could easily back out and say no more?
As of now, I am back to building my strength again to pursue this. To be transparent, I did not expect to be self-publishing, I had a whole different expectation, and not to mention learning that printing would be the Bain of the situation. It is a very expensive endeavor and much more than I anticipated. I have come to the conclusion that to remedy this situation is to go the crowd-funding route, which again brings me back to… How on earth can I make this happen? Still, I thank those who are patiently waiting for my book launch… Friends who have already bought a book. You are my heroes. Thank you.
.............. To see photo out-takes/ not chosen go to hausofsages.com/flowerbook page on the website.
I will have more info once I have established the crowd funding sitatuion. For now you can still pre-order the book either through this website or paypaling Hausofsages@gmail.com (Please reference pre-sale Flowerbook... You will be invited to the book launch + picking up your book at the party or will be sent thereafter).